This past week isn't everything I thought it to be.

Friday-   I go to my moms and everything is good. Went to pick James up from work and then we asked Todd if it was okay that James and Logan stay... he said it was cool... We go get his stuff and head back over then hell broke loose.Todd was drinking my mom adds more to the fire... Todd says Im no longer welcome there.. So James protects me and gets me out of there and takes me back to his place....

Saturday- Woke up Saturday with James... It was a GOOD morning...later on that day we were watching a movie and James's mom asked me to do her hair and I did.. James stayed in his room with Logan and Ariel... He didnt even hear me say I love you like 5 times...

Sunday- Logan got James and I not to feel well... so James and Logan switched shifts... James and I talked and stuff... He rode up with me and my mom to bring me home... As soon as I got back is when hell started taking over....

                  Monday didnt go so well... I had a snow day and which I was excitied for because i could talk to James all day but things werent going to good...it followed thru Wednesday night... Ever since Friday night Ive been crying and praying to god (if there is one) that I wouldnt loose James...

                So today we figured out that none of this is just one of our faults... It was both of ours... Yes I know I've been a lil bitchy lately... and I know my baubby has been a  douche but right now we're both are going thru hell... at least I can say we're helping each other out. I never wanna come back to fighting anymore... I dont wanna cry or hurt James in any way... I love him... I really do... if... If I loose him... My world would stop spinning...my life would be meaningless....

               James... Baubby... I love you. I try so hard to explain and there are no words I can say to show you... How much I love you.... until the day they come up with a better and stronger word for love... youre just gunna have to deal with my I LOVE YOUS!                

                             I LOVE YOU JAMES COLE-DAGUE<3

              My sweet 16 just past... wasn't so sweet. Spent it with James... I think that was the only good thing about my birthday....

             James is working alot which is good.. Our 8th month anniversary is Saturday... I hope I can be with him... Im also hoping that I can still do what I wanted to do for our anniversary. And hopefully our moms can stop being bitches for a while and get over it... I dont know I love you baubby like ALOT!!!....

           dont know what else byes

         Well I spent the whole Christmas break with my baubby, I loved every moment of it. Im so glad that James liked his gifts... I couldnt get him alot. I didnt have enough money to get him anything.... I got him A Sterling Silver Ring...(that was alot), Pink Floyd-The Wall, A Pink Flyod Shirt and Larry the Cable Guy Boxers... I just wish I could of got him more. Just waking up to him for 2 weeks was amazing... Having my good morning kisses and my goodnight kisses. Him Holding my hand while Im sleeping next to him( thats if we cant sleep in the same bed) When we do sleep together he holds me tight....

        Well I didnt get alot for Christmas but I guess its okay... from my mom I got like 4 shirts and a pair of ear rings... my dad got me 4 shirts , a robe and Some good smelly things from bath and body works... Marla got me a ring, some bath gel, ear rings...James's grandma gave me a bracelet... it was really nice of her beside all that nobody got me anything else so the gift things kinda sucked but ill live.

          New Years was fun -haha- James and I drank.First I helped my  mom and marla make Jello Shots... I guess they were okay... really didnt like them.. but anyways TD bought us some smirnoff triple black .. this time it had extra lime to it it was good... but not good enough so I have like 6 shots of 90 proof Vodka... lets just say I got fucked up... I was having fun til James sort of got mad at me... but James also had a good night.

         But anyways I got to spend an amazing 2 weeks with my fiance and i loved it. I get to spend this weekend with him and my sweet 16 and spring break and summer vacation with him and I cant wait...

         "Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres."                      1 Corinthians 13:4

              Last night I went to sleep feeling all weird. When I woke up this morning

I felt like everything was different. And it was. I really can't have that much stress, I cant

             fight about anything without feeling. All I can feel is Love. Love by James.

All day I felt like he's been with me. Every breath I took, every step I took I felt James.

             Im glad I have this Changed feeling...James I love you and I dont mean

                                                        to fight.

Ariel- Im glad we pushed all this to the side. Hopefully our men can figure a day to hang out. I do miss hanging out with you. There use to be 2 girls and for a while there was just me and 3 guys lol YEAH RIGHT. I can only take so mcuh lol. But hanging out should be fun!

James- Baubby I love you and Im sorry we got into a little argument. But I know and believe that you love me... so why do I need to worry? But just telling you now... if shit happens I will kill a bitch :) okay? okays *giggles* I love you babe and I dont ever wanna loose you. -kissys-

          A girl can only take so much til they fight back. Im sorry... This is fucking bullshit. If youre trying to start

something or try to make something happen well I got news for you all....ITS NOT GUNNA FUCKIN HAPPEN! Its

sad how  you try and try. If I have to I will  fight til the end. Im not gunna lose! I refuse. When you love someone 

youre just not gunna let them go. You'll fight for them. I would kill  myself just to show everyone i love him with

all my heart. You know I could sit here and tell you what I can do, but actions are more powerful. So I guess thats

what you want. Well here you go. I wont stop til you leave us alone. And If I get another phone call coming from

someone I trust very much and theyre telling me someones dirty little plan... shit will fly and I will take action. 

Thats not a threat, its me educating you on whats gunna happen. Im just tired of ppl trying to ruin my life and NO

MORE! Now I have something I can call my love my everything and no ones gunna take that away.....

Ariel.... you know... I just wish that WE could put everything in the past. I believe this is bringing stress towards our boyfriends and I dont think they need anymore with there Jobs.... so its up to you....

James--Hun, I love you and I always will. I never want to lose you and if I did I wouldnt be able to move on. I fell in-love with you I dont want / need to fall out of love with you. You make me smile, you make me laugh, you tickle me just to see me smile. i love you so much... ill never let you go